Sunday, November 11, 2007

Two Masters

It is never easy to balance family and work especially if you have children. There were months when I had a deadline to meet and then suddenly my children will begged me to attend their school assemblies or presentations. Of course, I can’t say no to them. But a half-day off from work has an impact to the project’s delivery date. That’s why I am forever grateful to my supervisor for being so supportive and understanding.

I love my family. Sometimes I wish that I can be a full-time wife and mother. I know I can do this whenever I want to but when I started thinking about the financial side it will be hard.

Now is so much different from before. My mother is a plain housewife. My father is the only breadwinner of our family. They’re able to support 4 children (I have 3 siblings). They’re able to provide us the basic necessities, some extras and sent us to private schools. But now, life will be very tough if you have three children and only one source of living. Hence, with a heavy heart I need to work to help my husband support our family.

I learned to be emotionally strong for the past nine years. I tried to convince myself that everything will be fine when we leave our kids to the caregiver. At work, I am trying so hard to focus my mind on what I am doing and try not to glance at the time. But at 5 in the afternoon I can’t wait to hopped in the bus and be with my family.

So who said you can’t serve two masters at the same time? I have been doing this for almost a decade and will still be doing this until we are financially better-off.