For the last six months, I have been busy taking care of a very cute pup, Winston, also known as Goku. He was nearly three months old when I had him. He’s so sweet and gorgeous boy. For the last six months he kept me company and tried his best to fill the void Toby left in my heart.
When it comes to dog tricks, he’s a fast learner. He knew how to sit, lie down, give his paw, high-five, and lately to stand on his two paws or up.
Just like his Kuya Toby he was also resource guarding me. He was a bit aggressive to other people and dogs when I am with him. But he’s a good boy to others when I am not around.
But fate decided to take a different twist. Maybe because he was a free-spirited little boy, he could not be contained inside the house. If he sees an opportunity to run free he would do it. He accidentally escaped and because the house is in the main road, my Goku did not make it.
My heart is torn again into many pieces. But, after I reflected, a thought hits me, from the first day I had Goku deep in my heart I felt he and Toby were one.
It will be my 50th birthday next month, and only Toby knew what my heart desires. There was one time I told Toby my wish when I turn 50 is to see the world, and he knew this would only be a wishful thinking with him around. Toby knew I would not leave him with someone else or if I did I would always worry.
Toby left after my 49th birthday, Goku left before my 50th. I think my gut feeling is right, Goku was Toby! He came back because he saw me in so much pain. Goku reassured me he is fine and he enjoys being free. Both of them wanted me to continue with my life and enjoy and fulfill all my dreams.
I know someday I will see my two fur babies again. So from today and onwards, I promise my fur babies that Mummy will go on with my life, do the things I put on hold for them, and always be happy so that they won’t worry too much for me.
Have a blast in heaven my little Goku. Thank you for coming into my life. It maybe short but those six months were the sweetest.
Winston ~ 4th Feb 2025 - 9th Oct 2025
